Selamat Tahun Baru 2017.
I was planning to write this entry yesterday, but, of course, I was caught up with life. Haha! Cliche excuse.
Writing this entry reminded me a lot what has been my resolution in the year of 2016. My resolution has always been personal, nothing too much on materials.
Remembering in the eve of 2016, one of my resolutions is to become a better Muslimah. Hence, on the 1st of January 2016, I’ve decided to wear jubah, instead of pants. It has not been an easy transition, since I have been wearing pants / jeans sepanjang hidup Mama. Yes, so, when I’ve decided to start wearing jubah, of course, I have like 2-3 jubah that I kept on rotating. Haha!
There are times that I still want to wear my jeans / pants. I was thinking, hey, I can still wear pants with longer blouse. That is still considered as covering your aurah, right? Speaking about aurah, I’ve been searching what is the right way to cover your aurah, so yes, I am still learning.
This is where I’ve learned to be istiqomah. Consistency.
You see, it’s not hard for us to change. It’s not hard for us to start new resolutions. It’s not hard for us to start something new. Or something different. It has not been that hard at all.
But, you know what is really hard for us? To keep on doing the same / similar thing, over and over again. And as for me, to keep on wearing jubah.
I’ve never thought that one day, I’ll be wearing jubah almost everyday, or everytime when I go out. From time-to-time, I still wear pants, but, more to palazzo-type. And the times when I wear this palazzo pants are only during with my family or just a quick run to the supermarket. Other times, I put on my jubah when I go out.
From 3 jubah that I’ve owned in entire of my life, now, I have almost 25-30 jubah. I actually did not kira berapa jubah that I’ve owned. Haha!
My jubah are very personal to me. Some of them are gifts from someone else, and some of them were my mother’s old jubah. I did not buy a lot, since I am very picky with my jubah.
So that is one azam that I continue to do in the year of my 2017. Alhamdulillah, up until now, I am no longer have any interest of wearing pants / jeans. May Allah ease this journey, Insya Allah.
And from there, I’ve got the opportunity to go to tafseer classes. Alhamdulillah. I’ve started to fall in love with Al-Quran, more and more, day-by day. Allahu, I’ve been reciting Al-Quran before, but never fully to understand the tafseer, or the stories in Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah, one step at a time. I’m still learning to recite with tarannum and perfect tajwid. Bila sudah tua, baru hendak sedar diri…T____T Better late than never, right?
And yes, one day, during Ramadhan in 2016, I’ve started to wear khimar and longer and wider shawls. Subhanallah. I have never thought that one day, I fell in love with khimar. I went to an Islamic-based school before, so, bertudung labuh is not a new thing for me. But, I always hate to wear tudung labuh. For me, tudung is always to cover your hair. Allahu, jahilnya Mama.
So many good things happen in the year of 2016. I did not become any richer, haha, but, then, I think, I’ve learned so many new knowledge , new discoveries, especially when it comes to be closer to Allah.
And what is my resolution for the year of 2017? Always, always to be closer to Allah. Eh, no more saving RM200K? No more travel sana travel sini? No more, Izyan? Really?
Who knows right? Everything pun Allah sudah plan untuk kita. Allah is always the best planner. And that’s why, I put my absolute faith in Allah, to plan for me, and to guide me, to be a better person. To be a better Muslimah.
I want to understand Al-Quran more.
I want to go to Islamic classes consistently.
I want to spend more and more time with my loved ones.
And, less for dunya, more for akhirat. Insya Allah.
And what is your resolution for this year? I hope, whatever your resolutions are, semoga segalanya dipermudahkan oleh Allah.
Apa yang berlaku sebelum ini, hanyalah masa lampau, untuk dijadikan pengajaran. It’s not the past that define us, tetapi bagaimana pengakhiran kita yang menjadi penentu kehidupan kita di akhirat nanti.
Semoga kita semua sentiasa istiqomah dalam mendekati Allah. Semoga kita semua, sentiasa menjadi hamba yang taat pada perintah Allah. Semoga kita semua menjadi hamba yang sentiasa meninggalkan larangan Allah. Dan semoga Allah merahmati kita semua.